Chapter 25 - An American Flavour

But it wasn’t Cédrick standing at the door when it opened, it was Sidney. He glanced around the room. “What are you guys doing here?” He demanded, then he glared at me. “My Dad said that you were sick.”
“Umm perhaps we should leave.” Patrick said, glancing first at Sidney, then at me.
“That’s probably a good idea.” Sidney snapped, glaring at his teammates.
I glared right back at him. “Don’t look at them like that.” I snapped at him. “They came to see how I was.”
“Well that’s what I’m doing.” Sidney replied in snarky tones.
“Good for you.” I muttered.
Danny came over and kissed me on the cheek. “See you later babes ‘kay?” He said, glancing at Sidney. “In fact, call me after he leaves.”
“I will.” I said, double kissing him.
Mark glared at Sidney. “You have no fucking clue what you’re doing here Darryl.” He snapped. “Get your head out of your ass and treat her right.”
“You have no clue what’s going on Mark.” Sidney snapped. “So keep your fucking mouth shut.”
Mark rolled his eyes. “I don’t need to know that whole story to know that no girl deserves to be treated like crap. Especially not Kally. She’s been nothing but great to everyone since she got here, even to guys like Marc-Antoine and Dany who have been less then stellar to her.”
With that, Mark, Danny, and Patrick stood to leave. I glanced over at Patrick. “Telephone Cédrick s’il vous plait Patrick.” I asked in French.
“Pas de problem Kally.” He said, glancing warily at Sidney.
“What did you ask him?” Sidney demanded as soon as the door was closed behind the guys.
“I asked Patrick to call Cédrick so that he doesn’t show up. We figured it was Cédrick at the door, not you.” I said, plopping myself down. I looked up at him. “So what do you want?” I asked.
“I wanted to come and see how you were feeling.” Sidney sighed and sat.
“I feel fine physically.” I said with a shrug. “So you don’t have to worry about that.” I snapped. “I’m not having any morning sickness or anything.”
“That’s good.” Sidney said hesitantly. “Umm, but why didn’t you come to the game?”
I shrugged. “Because I didn’t think that you’d want to see me.” I said.
“Why wouldn’t I want to see you?” He asked.
“I don’t know.” I said with a shrug. “Maybe the same reason you haven’t come to see me in the past, like week.”
Sidney sighed. “Look Kally, this isn’t exactly easy for me.”
“Yeah, so instead of dealing with it with me, the way you should, you run to Marc-Antoine and Dany Roussin and tell them about it.” I snapped.
“How did you know about that?” Sidney asked, his eyes wide with shock.
I rolled my eyes. “I do have friends on that team you know. Guys who are worried about the way you appear to be treating me.”
“Marc-Antoine and Dany are older, they’re team leaders. They’ve seen situations like this before.” Sidney tried to explain himself. “What I want to know is how any of those guys knew about it.”
I rolled my eyes. “You were talking about it on the bus ride home from Lewiston Sidney.” I snapped. “None of your teammates are deaf you know.”
“So these guys came over here to tell you what they heard?” He snapped.
“They thought that I should know that Marc-Antoine and Dany were telling you that this is what comes from committing to one girl too soon.” I snapped.
“Maybe it is.” Sidney said petulantly.
“And maybe you need to get your fucking head out of your ass.” I replied angrily. “If that were true a lot of guys would have pregnant girlfriends.” I snapped. “Cédrick for one. This has nothing to do with committing to one girl Sidney and it has everything to do with bad luck.”
“Fuck you can say that again.” Sidney moaned.
“If I am pregnant Sid, I can disappear.” I told him softly, feeling incredibly sorry for myself.
“What do you mean disappear?” He asked.
“I can have my Grandparents send me overseas… or I’ll go down to North Dakota to visit Zach at the end of the semester until the baby is born. No one will know and I won’t start showing until February probably. I could stick around through January and then we could break up very publicly and I can leave. Then it just won’t be a problem for you anymore. Hell most people would figure the baby was Zach’s… and I know Zachie would help me out.”
“Is that what you think I want?” He demanded. “If you’re pregnant? To have Zach Parisé pretend to be my child’s father?”
“Yes.” I said, tears welling up in my eyes.
“Why the hell do you think that?” He demanded, his eyes blazing in fury.
“Umm maybe because you walked out on me when I told you that I was late.” I told him. “And maybe because you’ve avoided me like the plague ever since.”
“I’ve got a lot on my mind Kally.” He snapped.
“Oh and I fucking don’t?” I snapped back. “I’m trying to take classes in a foreign fucking language, my Mom is on my ass to go to College in January, my boyfriend, well are you even my boyfriend anymore Sidney?” I asked, choking back tears.
Sidney sighed and pulled me into his arms. “Baby of course I’m still your boyfriend.” He murmured into my hair. “I’m just… overwhelmed right now.” He said, smoothing my hair with a gentle hand. “I mean, I’m dealing with the whole PR thing all the time, and I’m under a lot of pressure to get this team into the playoffs. Plus the World Juniors tryouts are coming up in just over a month and I don’t have a guaranteed spot on the team and I want it bad Kal.”
I tipped my chin up so that he could kiss me. To my surprise however, he didn’t. I sighed and stretched up, kissing him softly on the cheek. “Sidney I followed you to Rimouski because I thought you wanted to be with me, no matter what. I’m sorry that this is happening to you, but you have to remember, its not just happening to you. It’s happening to me too… AND this isn’t something I did intentionally just to fuck up your life.”
I paused, the tears I’d choked back earlier now streaming down my face. “I like you too much to ever want to fuck up your life. I will do anything I have to to make things right for you Sidney.”
Sidney placed a soft kiss on my forehead, tears evident in his eyes. This was really, really stressing him out, and I didn’t want that either. I’d only told him because I felt that it was the right thing to do. “Kally I’m sorry.” He whispered, his voice hoarse. “I just don’t know if I can do this. I’m not ready to be a Dad. I mean, even when my Mom became pregnant unexpectedly they were in their twenties. Neither of us are even 18 baby.”
I clung to him. I was scared to let him go, because I knew full well that if I did, he was going to leave again. “I know Sidney and I’m scared too.”
He smoothed my hair softly and kissed my forehead again. We rocked gently back and forth in my living room. “What are we going to do Kally?” He whispered, the panic evident in his voice. “What are we going to do baby?”
“I don’t know Sidney.” I replied, once again tipping my chin up so that my lips were there for him to take if he chose. “I just want us to do whatever we do together.”
Sidney mumbled something I couldn’t understand as he covered my mouth with his. His lips met mine in a passionate kiss… the same kind that we used to share. I moaned low in his mouth and tangled my fingers in his hair. His hands moved lower, groping my insistently.
“I’ve missed you Kally….” He muttered into my mouth.
“I’ve missed you too sexy….” I replied, pressing a line of open-mouthed kisses down his neck.
Sidney grabbed my legs and scooped me up in his arms, carrying me into my bedroom where he lay me gently on the bed. We kept going, undressing as we did, until Sidney looked at me and whispered. “Do you have any condoms?” He asked, kissing and licking at my ear.
I moaned low and nodded. “Top drawer of my dresser.” I replied. “But why?”
“No point in tempting fate, right?” He replied, going to my dresser to grab a condom.
“Why is this pack open?” He demanded when he got to the dresser.
“Umm because they’re the same ones I had last year at Shattuck’s.” I told him, feeling frustrated because I was eager to finish what we’d started.
“But I thought you didn’t have sex with anyone last year at Shattuck’s.” Sidney replied, coming to the bed and flopping down.
“Not at Shattuck’s, but when Zachie and I left to go to his parents place in St. Paul we stopped off at my dorm room because all of Zach’s condoms were in North Dakota and we didn’t want to stop and get any.” I explained. “There should be five missing.” I paused. “No, seven. I gave a couple to Jacky one night.”
“Why did you give Jack condoms?” Sidney asked, as his fingers played with my hair.
“He had a girl who was hot to fuck but he didn’t have any gloves.” I said shrugging as I turned to face him. “He figured I’d have some, so he came and asked. I gave him a couple.”
Sidney leaned down and kissed me over and over again until we were both hot to trot again. He was everything I’d ever wanted… everything I’d ever been looking for. I needed him in my life, I realized as we made love, I just needed him.
We lay cuddled together and I fell asleep briefly. I’d been asleep for probably twenty minutes when I could feel Sidney slide out of bed. I turned and opened my eyes, only to see him getting dressed. “Where are you going Sid?” I asked softly, looking at the clock. “It’s only 9.”
He blushed to the roots of his hair, telling me that he had been trying to sneak out when I wasn’t paying attention. “I have some homework I have to do.” He stammered.
I sat straight up, completely unaware that I was still naked. “Don’t fucking lie to me kid.” I snapped angrily. “I always know when you’re lying.”
“Kally I….”
“Fuck you Sidney.” I interrupted him tearfully. “You were trying to get the fuck out of here when I was asleep so that you wouldn’t fucking have to explain yourself to me.”
“Kally….” He trailed off.
I sat there on the bed, naked and crying, and suddenly became very aware of the fact that I was naked. I reach over for my sweats. “You suck.” I told him. “I mean, I thought that I could trust you. I only told you that I had missed my period because I thought that you deserved to know. I thought I could trust you to be there with me through this. Clearly I was wrong.”
Instead of looking chastised, the way that I thought he would, Sidney had the audacity to glare at me. “You want to know the truth Kally?” He demanded. “I was sneaking out of here so that I didn’t have to answer to you. I shouldn’t have to answer to you!”
“And this coming from the guy who demanded to know why there were condoms missing in the package in my drawer.” I said rolling my eyes.
“You’re MY girlfriend.” Sidney snapped. “I have a right to know about those things.”
“So I have to answer to you but you don’t have to answer to me?” I replied, rolling my eyes again. “That makes so much fucking sense.”
Sidney looked like a cornered animal. “You want to know why else I was trying to sneak out?” He demanded. “Because I wanted to avoid a scene like this! You’re such a fucking prima donna Kally. Always dressing like you’re hot shit.”
“First of all, I dress with CLASS, something that I have been trying to teach you. Second of all darling, I am hot shit, and you fucking know it. And thirdly I wouldn’t be causing scene if you’d just fucking told me the truth in the first place.” I said. “That you just came here to get laid and now that you were done you were leaving.”
“That wasn’t the only reason why I came.” He mumbled.
“Well it sure in fucking hell seems like it.” I told him, turning my back on him. “Now get the fuck out of my house before the neighbors call the cops. We wouldn’t want to embarrass the phenom now would we?”